I moved to Fargo, ND last month

It is so easy to get swept under the current. It’s easy to be trapped there, to feel yourself losing air. I’m careful with my words (in this space at least) and I mean that. To feel the last of your hope, the last of your essence, the last of everything slip out. To feel it in your chest and to know what it means for you in your brain.

We don’t talk about that enough: how hard it is, how hard it can be, to exist as a human. It’s hard to be connected to people. It’s hard to depend on people and to be depended on. It’s hard when someone you know kills someone and it’s hard when his birthday comes up on your phone as a reminder from that time you gave Facebook permission to download to your calendar. It’s hard to survive a pandemic and it’s hard when its existence is a debate. It’s hard to know that your life matters only to some people, only under certain conditions they don’t even hold themselves to. It’s hard to be out of work and trapped in your home each and every day. It’s hard when your home burns down and ash fills your lungs.

Even in normal times, it’s hard to be a solitary person in a sea of seven billion.


When I interviewed a graduate student at a school I didn’t attend to see if I could picture myself in the city, I got lucky. She had also lived in Seattle and was now living in a small, rural college town much like the one I ended up in. I asked her what that was like, how it felt to find yourself in a field after blooming in the shadow of skyscrapers.

“There’s an undercurrent,” she said “at least I feel there is, in the city. There’s a sense that you always need to be on edge. There’s traffic and impatience. There’s a clock you set yourself to and a way you look over your shoulder. But here, in this town, I’ve felt that slip away. I’ve felt a deliberate slowing, a return to baseline. A chance to breathe.”

There’s some truth to this, I can already say that in a month living in a smaller urban town. There is also a beauty that big cities offer that small ones never could. But that sounds nice doesn’t it? In 2020? To escape to a slowing, a deliberate return to something missing.

When I took a break from social media, in an attempt to gain a modicum of control back over my life, I hadn’t intended to come back so soon (I’m still not quite back on Facebook but I’ll get there soon). Being connected to other humans, absorbing their griefs, listening to their insane debates and dehumanization, floating in a sea of noise, is painful and overwhelming. At a time when none of us are at our best, in a binary, one-dimensional space designed to bring out our worst, it’s easy to get swept under and believe principally, in the very worst of humanity.

I came out two days after a friend of mine went on a homophobic rant on a mutual friend’s thread about LGBT identities and Christianity. That same friend reached out and offered undying support in a private message. I think a lot of my motivation to retreat into a bubble, where I could only be reached by those I reached to, stemmed from this deepening understanding of the human experience of connection. I have never been more fully convinced that very few people in this world are good and that very few people in this world are bad.

There’s a mistake here that many of my friends will make. This idea doesn’t excuse behavior. It doesn’t suddenly make it appropriate to be a critic in public but a supporter in private. It doesn’t make it right to speak into situations and dynamics that don’t directly involve you. But it does humanize and contextualize behavior beyond some arbitrary conception of good or evil. And in 2020, when everything feels like a byproduct of our inhumanity – terrorism and violence, climate change and sickness, fascism and irreverence – it can be enough to simply see one another as a combination of all the good and all the evil. It can be enough to say “I’m not sure if I like this person, or if this person is good for me.” It can be enough to live in that gray space of exceptional pain and betrayal, and the full illuminated beauty of being seen.


Being a human is exhausting. I can’t help but think, though, of how exhausting it has always been and how incrementally less exhausting it has gotten. I think about a brick being thrown at a bar in 1960’s New York because someone decided that day to be seen and heard. I think about a tired woman staying seated when everyone expected her to stand. I think about generations of small acts of good work that made the world a little more inhabitable.

Laying in your bed past noon and allowing yourself to feel the weight of it all is good work. You make your body a little more homey for the grief you harbor in your soul.

Standing on a street corner holding a sign is good work. You make that street a little easier to walk down for someone worried about getting shot in the back.

Therapy is good work. Activism is good work. Prayer is good work. Abolishing an old system and crafting a new one is good work. You are a good work and the work you do is good. Keep going.

It is so easy to be swept under that current and become convinced that drowning is the same thing as breathing. I believe in the power of the current to take us down. I also believe in that small seed of hope that’s planted when you kick and come up for just one second of air.


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The Off Season

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Death, taxes, and the NWSL cramming an entire off season into a week or two. There’s a lot to unpack, and this article will be updated as necessary.

The action practically began, in NWSL terms, while the season was still going. In late December, Makenzy Doniak was traded from the Royals to the Red Stars. With the loss of forward Sam Kerr, the club needs to bolster its attacking position. Doniak is a curious choice for the Red Stars. While she was a phenomenal asset to the Flash/Courage franchise, her career has somewhat faltered after a trade to Utah and season-ending injury. In exchange though, the Red Stars had only to yield a 2021 draft pick. The Red Stars stand to gain a decent pause to the Kerr-sized bleeding, for a tiny amount of future loss.

Kealia Ohai, the star Dash forward, was also acquired by the Red Stars in exchange for defender Katie Naughton. Jane Campbell could use Naughton’s help, although losing their lead goal scorer makes the trade feel like a bit of a wash for Houston. With Sarah Gordon and Tierna Davidson on the backline, Naughton’s loss will be felt but not as deadly as I fear Ohai’s will be. To be fair, Ohai, for all her intensity on the pitch, is no Kerr.

OL Groupe, the ownership of the French Ligue 1 and Feminine teams Olympique Lyonnais purchased an 89.5% stake in Reign FC. This investment should be seen as a significant step forward for the NWSL. The lure of competing international leagues is something that should concern fans. We’ll discuss this in a future post, but, for now, I’m calling international ownership a win.

Portland Thorns, in exchange for USWNT player Emily Sonnett, the rights to star Matilda forward Caitlin Foord, and two draft picks, received the first pick of the 2020 draft. The player – likely Sophia Smith – is someone the Thorns management is betting on. After failing to reach the championship this year, and a sloppy end to the season, it’s clear the Thorns need to make a change. But putting all their eggs into one basket seems a little shaky. Trading Foord, who is eyeing, and being eyed, by Arsenal Women, is a good move at least. If the Thorns can’t utilize Foord next season, they might as well try and get someone out of her. Trading Sonnett and two draft picks on top of it? Say what you want about the Pride but their negotiation is insane. They also managed to lure Amanda Duffy, president of the league, to their front office. If the Pride finds themselves fanless and scoreless at the end of next season as well, something is broken that may not be fixable.

Sky Blue acquired a permanent coach in the form of its mid-season interim head Freya Combe. Last year, we were talking about the rockiness of Sky Blue: Most of its draft players declined to play, egregious facility concerns left world-class players without showers, and sketchy housing arrangements. Combe, who brought Sky Blue out of the shadows since taking over, signifies a shift towards greatness in the club. A new home at Red Bull Arena, a partnership with the New York Red Bulls, and improved behind-the-scenes conditions have shown us that nothing in the league is irredeemable.


Royals head coach Laura Harvey departed the club to become the new U-20 USWNT coach. The move is unsurprising from Harvey, who has championed a successful coaching career for both the Reign and the Royals. Harvey’s second half of the 2019 season was marked by failure and disappointment. The U-20 will no doubt benefit from Harvey’s humor, intelligence, and drive. And Utah will no doubt benefit from a coach able to cast their full vision onto the team in front of them.

If we’re keeping tabs on coaching, it stands to mention that of the nine NWSL teams, two are now without coaches less than a week before draft day. The Reign FC are also without a coach, having also lost to the USWNT appeal. While the Royals can’t exactly be blamed for the vacancy, having been told Harvey would return for the 2020 season, the same can’t be said for the Reign. Andonovski has been the WNT coach since October 28th. Perhaps the OL Groupe deal placed a particular strain on the coaching search, but now the deal is finalized, the Reign need to find a head coach, permanent or interim. In the meantime, Sam Laity will have a lot on his plate.

The Thorns also traded Midge Purce and a 2021 pick to Sky Blue in exchange for Rocky Rodriguez, a move that makes sense for both clubs. Rodriguez is a natural replacement for Foord and Purce is a good compliment to the crowded Lloyd/Zer

The Thorns also traded Midge Purce and a 2021 pick to Sky Blue in exchange for Rocky Rodriguez, a move that makes sense for both clubs. Rodriguez is a natural replacement for Foord and Purce is a good compliment to the crowded Lloyd/Zerboni midfield. Speaking of, the Courage released McCall Zerboni to Sky Blue in exchange for the rights to Hailie Mace, one of the draft casualties of 2019. It will be interesting to see if Mace is tempted back to the states for the winningest franchise in NWSL history, or if she’ll remain in Sweden.

Off Season Winner: Orlando Pride

Off Season Loser: The NWSL Front Office

Stay tuned for more updates. And, whatever happens, keep covering, watching, cheering, and demanding more women in sports.

Lies I’ve Told

The biggest lie I have ever told was in first grade. I told my mom an elaborate story of a gunman that came into my elementary school and hid on our stage. I was grounded, though I’m certain it wasn’t for as long as I deserved. I’ve told millions, if not billions of lies, since then. I’ll tell trillions more after tonight.

I’m not good enough. I shouldn’t be alive.

That man is an idiot and a racist.

She’s intentionally trying to provoke me online.

I’m literally freezing to death.

My heart in this series was not to shame you for the lies you’ve believed. We’re conditioned to hate ourselves and others. I believe we can break that, though. Not forever, probably not even for a while, but enough. Every interaction that dents the idol of safety, every moment we can sleep beside the crazy, every person we can love recklessly, every easy answer we see beyond, matters. The goal is not to tell no lies, it’s to tell less. To love yourself a little bit more every day and give yourself permission to feel everything as it comes. To see your neighbor as someone as human and broken and beautiful as you.

I love you. You matter. I love myself. I matter.

Everything else is a lie.

I’m sure we’re all surprised it took me a month and a half to publish a month-long series. I’m wondering what thoughts you might have on it. You can post a comment below, send us a message, or submit anonymous feedback. Thanks for trying to build empathy with me. Thanks for trusting a liar as big as me.

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Ellen, Existence, and Equality of Thought

Lies We Believe About Ourselves and Others

Day 2: Ellen, Existence, and the Equality of Thought

In October, an unlikely thing happened. A queen of daytime TV, who many across political spectrums and identities have come to love and respect, came under fire for the very thing that made her a revolution: kindness. Ellen DeGeneres, the TV talk show host, came under fire after being photographed chatting – and laughing – with former US President George W. Bush.

Many felt that his stances, specifically on LGBT+ issues, ran counter to the things that Ellen is supposed to support. She’s a gay woman who has experienced legal firing and public humiliation for her identity as a gay woman.

George Bush fought to keep homosexual conduct illegal as governor of Texas. He considered vetoing the Matthew Shepard Act, which included sexual orientation as a protected category in hate crime cases. He tried to make gay marriage permanently illegal. He also employed an openly gay man in his administration, the first Republican to do so.

But this wasn’t the first time someone got in trouble for being friends with someone else, and certainly not the first time one of those people was Ellen.


A year prior, in October of 2018, the Christian singer Lauren Daigle appeared on Ellen’s show. She laughed with Ellen and hugged her. Christians lost their collective mind. Lauren was supposedly a good Christian girl, and here she was with a self-proclaimed, unrepentant, habitual sinner.

Neither woman helped herself when she made her public statement regarding the controversy.

Ellen discussed the moment with plenty of jokes on her show that ultimately boiled down to being kind to everyone, regardless of their belief. Sure, people said and continue to. Different beliefs are fine but there’s a difference between wearing fur and invalidating someone’s entire identity.

Lauren admitted she wasn’t sure whether homosexuality was a sin and her Christian fan base lost their minds. She went from prophet to heathen in seconds. Unsurprising, given hundreds of people called for Eugene Patterson’s best-selling translation of the Bible to be recalled from stores nationwide over similar comments.

Freedom of belief and expression is permissible only to the point of sacrifice. When it becomes hard to love, it is no longer worth it. When you have to give some part of yourself up in order to love someone else, the love doesn’t matter anymore.

You aren’t entirety wrong to think this kind of reckless opinion-acceptance is problematic. Think about your least favorite global conflict. One ethnic group believes another ethnic group should die and starts a war to prove it. One foreign government believes it can infiltrate the power of another.


On the surface, it appears you’re right. Refusing to acknowledge someone’s existence is the cause of the global strife we see today. Refusing to acknowledge an ethnic group leads to genocide. Opinions and beliefs matter. I’m going to call people out when I see them condoning, even through silence, acts of oppression. Ellen hanging out with a homophobic legislator, Lauren associating with a dirty heathen, lead to the silent acceptance of problematic ideologies. These, in turn, promote war and violence, a fleeing from god and god’s commandments. Chaos.

But we’re missing the point in that simplistic characterization. It isn’t the initial, identity-rejecting opinion that makes the hatred run bloody. It’s the refusal to be wrong. It’s George Bush asking Ellen and Portia to separate themselves or not act couple-y in the presence of his Christian wife and himself. It’s Lauren declining a hug so as to not devalue her salvation.

The lie we believe about ourselves is that we’re always right, even when we know for a fact we are. You don’t have to look hard to see the rhetoric I’ve spread about The Courage’s defender Jaelene Hinkle. I know Hinkle is in the wrong. I know her stances obliterate the peace-seeking nature of Christ. I’m 100% correct in this opinion. And, my friends and I agree about this. We’ve had many discussions about the fact that we could not even play for the courage because they inadvertently support Hinkle’s narrative. I am the person this post is for.

I think that Hinkle’s rhetoric rejects the existence of lesbian, bisexual, and queer teammates and fans. I’m correct. It does. But my rejection of her denies her existence as a subscriber to a faith that is not my own. A faith I deem inexcusable; a lifestyle she deems inexcusable. Neither of us have a right to exist according to the belief systems of the other but yet both of us do. It’s complicated and it’s hard and it leaves us with only one of two choices: claim your own existence and reject the existence of your other, or claim the coexistence of two opposing identities and actively choose to live in the tension that inevitably accompanies it.

One creates genocides. One causes you to sacrifice everything that makes you you for the betterment of humanity. Your existence belongs to you, as does this choice. But the consequences do too.


I’m Fine.

Lies We Believe About Ourselves and Others

Day Two: I’m Fine.

Sometimes it’s a slow descent into madness. So slowly we don’t notice anything’s wrong until everything is. We break down in the kitchen at 2am crying so hard we can’t breathe.

Sometimes it comes all at once. We endure something. A death, an assault, an accident, a trauma. We have a baby. We go to bed in a different world than the one we wake up in.

Either way, the whole time, we mutter under our breaths, I’m fine I’m fine I’m fine until it’s clear that we aren’t.

Looking back on it now, it feels silly, but I know it felt real then, and with the amount of conversations I’ve had in the past decade, I know it feels real to you too: I don’t want to take a pill to feel happy.

On this side of things, as an asthmatic, I know I need my inhaler to breathe. It’s stupid. Plenty of people can breathe without one. I’m just not one of them. Plenty of people don’t need to take a pill to ward off the darkness. I’m just not one of them. I also have anxiety and nightmares. I can rarely fall asleep on my own. I take pills for that too. It’s why I’m a huge advocate for medication. It’s quick and effective. And when everything is hard – getting out of bed, going to work and school, staying alive – it’s easy.

I also understand medication isn’t everything. You might feel weird about putting things in your body or messing with your brain chemistry. And, the truth is, medication isn’t enough alone. I’ve made changes to my environment as well. I know I can’t stay in bed all day on the weekends. Even when it takes me two and a half hours to get my shoes on and walk out the door. I know it’s what’s best for me. I know I thrive better living with people than on my own. There’s something about forced human connection that pulls me out of my head a bit. I like to take long walks to the store because it makes me feel better than driving. I drive in the same haze I sit in. When I walk, I have to shake it out a bit. I get hot or cold.

These strategies didn’t come overnight. It took a lot of effort to find out what didn’t work and what did. It also meant I had to stop saying I was fine when I wasn’t.


There’s a lot of reasons we’re unwilling to say we’re not okay. Despite our best efforts, there’s still a stigma around going to therapy and mental illness. There’s concerns that these people are dangerous. Films like Joker and political analysis of mass shootings assert a narrative that sick people do sick things. We’re busy. It’s difficult to have a nervous breakdown when you’re raising kids, going to school, and working full time. It’s expensive. I see Facebook posts at least every other week from friends who can’t afford groceries, inhalers, or credit card bills. You want them to go to therapy on top of it?

And it takes so much time to find someone you’re comfortable with, who has a therapy style that fits you. Imagine going on a first date, but instead of talking about what your parents do or what your love language is, you have to unpack your traumas and explain why you feel like everyone is out to get to you. Then, on date three, you realize the person you’re seeing isn’t even attractive and you have to start all over again. It’s exhausting and traumatic and difficult for anyone, let alone someone going through a personal health crisis.

A multifaceted problem requires a multifaceted solution. We need more people to say they aren’t okay, declare it with pride and affection. Last Christmas, a person who went to my church posted a photo admitting she wasn’t okay. It was so empowering to me to know someone else wasn’t okay. We need affordable mental health care and a work culture that validates workers who aren’t okay. People shouldn’t have to choose between paying their rent and staying alive. We need to normalize medication for mental illness and accept that it isn’t the only path to stability. Yoga, mindfulness, physical activity are all acceptable ways for people to feel better. We need to give people the empowerment to say they aren’t okay and the courage to ask how we can help.

First, though, we have to be vulnerable with ourselves. We have to stop saying we’re fine when we mean we’re not. If we want an honest answer to the question “How are you?” we have to first be willing to answer the question ourselves. Building an inclusive, empathetic world begins at home. It begins with having compassion for yourself. Maybe you’re not fine.

And maybe that’s okay.

Today’s Challenges:

In what ways are you not okay? What strategies are you willing to implement in your life to improve your functioning?

Take ten minutes out of your day to do something you want to do. Something that relaxes and restores you.


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An Open Letter to the President

Dear Mr. President,

The first and only other time I have written a President of the United States was in December of 2013, after a shooting occurred at one of three high schools in my district. Many of my friends at the time were in the building. I wrote an impassioned plea to then-president Obama about gun control, mental health resources, and other possible solutions to gun violence across the country, and so acutely felt in my Colorado community, not just once, but multiple times before and since then. At the time, as I mentioned, I was careless and hopeful enough to believe that when I contacted the President, both senators, and my house Representative, something, anything really, might have been done to combat gun violence in this country I found to be wonderful, passionate, and beautiful, if, clearly a bit dangerous. In the days and years since, I’ve paid careful attention to each mass shooting. I’ve known a school shooter and lived through a false alarm. It has become far more personal of an issue for me, but it has also raised other questions about America and the land I am grateful to call home.

I will not waste your incredibly valuable time asking what you or your administration’s plan to combat gun violence is. Out of fairness, I will also not ask your 2020 opponents.  I have learned that no matter who sits in the Oval Office (or in Congress), nothing will be done. After today’s events in El Paso, I have found myself wrestling with an old question, stewing in me ever since that numbing December day six years ago. Do I live in a country that is too incompetent to do anything to protect its citizens, or too apathetic? Do I live in a country that cannot do anything or that simply does not wish to?

I also will not waste your time trying to answer that question. There is no answer that you could feasibly give whilst running for reelection. And you should not be forced into a nihilistic, cynical binary, especially from a citizen who did not vote for you and whom you have never met. Instead, my question for you, and that I have posed to your congressional colleagues, is what makes you proud to be an American? What is lovely and good and pure about America, in your eyes? I know there are plenty of answers, but I am so tired.

My patriotism has taken a major hit after questioning my country’s ability and empathy for six long and bitter years. An answer to this might help me once again sing God Bless America or the Star Spangled Banner without abandon. It may help me hope again in America’s future, and be grateful for playing a part in it.

Most Respectfully,

Bryce Van Vleet,

Littleton, CO

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World Cup 2019 and NWSL in Review

Women’s football fans, we had an electric world cup to be thankful for this year. Sad it’s over and all your favorite players will have to wait four years before being on your TV again? Not so fast. Find out what club teams all your favorite players are on at the end of this post.

My favorite matches of the tournament were Norway v. Australia and US v. England. While there were plenty of teams to discuss, I’m guessing my audience will be most interested in my thoughts on the US team.

The World’s Most Arrogant Players – The USWNT has received international bad press for being too arrogant. Just a reminder that these arrogant players have consistently played better than their male counterparts for the last eight iterations of the competition. (Keep in mind that women have only been allowed to play football on the world stage since 1991). They still make 100,000 or more less than their male counterparts. Let’s imagine the women were arrogant. If we can’t afford to pay them what they’re worth while they boost Nike sales past world records, and make American broadcasters millions, surely we can at least them be a bit cocky? And let’s analyze why the women are arrogant.

  1. They beat a country to a pulp. When the Broncos were creamed in the largest Super Bowl score differential to date in 1990, were the 49ers called bad sports? I mean, they surely didn’t have to keep scoring touchdowns to make the score 55-10. To make matters worse, the 49ers also started the game by calling themselves the best team. How arrogant is that!
  2. Alex Morgan mimed drinking tea when she scored against the English. Megan Rapinoe held up her arms after scoring in the match before that. The sheer audacity! Don’t women know the only proper way to celebrate a goal is apologizing to the goalie? Or, to just do what men do, take off their shirts and grab their privates? You know, a celebration that’s actually civilized. 
  3. They’re good. Well, at least, good for women. They’ve managed to get to the championship three years in a row. They excel at sports which makes everyone a little crazy. Women. Good at sports. In 2019. What’s next?

We except women to be silent, dainty, and apologetic. When they refuse to be, it’s easier to call them arrogant than to it is to call them talented.

Jill Ellis – Ellis remains a coach who makes terrible decisions. From subs to players who occupy positions they’ve never played before, Ellis continues to be a coach that many US fans can’t understand. It is difficult to argue with results, though, but you have to wonder whether its a result of the women’s game being better supported here than in other markets, or if Ellis truly is coaching her team the way it deserves.

Megan Rapinoe – The most discussed women’s player of the championship, but certainly not the best. While she’s been incredible to watch, and a huge asset to the team, her loss in the quarterfinals showed how strong and dynamic the USWNT team is. Unlike other country’s teams, the loss of one player didn’t matter for the performance of the team. They were just as effective without Rapinoe as they were with her.

Alyssa Naeher – The reason the US were able to advance to the finals, plain and simple. Expert defense of a PK is the reason the US Were able to advance at all.

Alex Morgan – The captain shone on the pitch with expert leadership and backed it up with goals.

What Now?

What can fill the void in your heart now that the World Cup is over? The National Women’s Soccer Team, of course! All your favorite players have four months left of club play. Why say goodbye now?

Catch up with predictions of the 2019 season.

Current rankings

How to Watch

US Viewers – Yahoo Sports – Free to watch!

International Viewers –

Match of the Week – ESPN


Team USA – Who plays where?

  1. Captain Alex Morgan – Orlando Pride
  2. Megan Rapinoe – Seattle/Tacoma Reign FC (Hate her, cheer for the Portland Thorns, the Reign’s rivals.)
  3. Christen Press – Utah Royals FC
  4. Tobin Heath – Portland Thorns FC
  5. Carli Lloyd – New Jersey Sky Blue FC
  6.  Julie Ertz – Chicago Red Stars
  7. Rose Lavelle – Washington D.C. Spirit
  8. Ali Krieger – Orlando Pride
  9. Mallory Pugh – Washington Spirit
  10. Alyssa Naeher – Chicago Red Stars
  11. Abby Dahlkemper – North Carolina Courage
  12. Ashlyn Harris – Orlando Pride
  13. Kelley O’Hara – Utah Royals FC
  14. Crystal Dunn – North Carolina Courage
  15. Lindsey Horan – Portland Thorns FC
  16. Morgan Brian – Chicago Red Stars
  17. Becky Sauerbrunn – Utah Royals FC
  18. Allie Long – Reign FC
  19. Sam Mewis – North Carolina Courage
  20. Tierna Davidson – Chicago Red Stars
  21. Adriana Franch – Portland Thorns FC
  22. Jess McDonald – North Carolina Courage
  23. Emily Sonnett – Portland Thorns FC

Australia – Who plays where?

  1. Lydia Williams – Reign FC
  2. Chloe Logarzo – Washington Spirit
  3. Steph Catley – Reign FC
  4. Elise Kellond-Knight – Reign FC
  5. Caitlin Foord – Portland Thorns FC
  6. Emily van Egmond – Orlando Pride
  7. Alanna Kennedy – Orlando Pride
  8. Hayley Raso – Portland Thorns FC
  9. Sam Kerr – Chicago Red Stars
  10. Ellie Carpenter – Portland Thorns FC
  11. Amy Harrison – Washington Spirit

Brazil – Who plays where?

  1. Andressinha – Portland Thorns FC
  2. Debinha – North Carolina Courage
  3. Marta – Orlando Pride
  4. Camila – Orlando Pride


  1. Estelle Johnson – Sky Blue FC


  1. Stephanie Labbe – North Carolina Courage
  2. Allysha Chapman – Houston Dash
  3. Shelina Zadorsky – Orlando Pride
  4. Desiree Scott – Utah Royals FC
  5. Christine Sinclair – Portland Thorns FC
  6. Sophie Schmidt – Houston Dash
  7. Nichelle Prince – Houston Dash
  8. Kailen Sheridan – Sky Blue FC
  9. Lindsay Agnew – Hoston Dash


  1. Jodie Taylor – Reign FC
  2. Rachel Daly – Houston Dash


  1. Cheyna Matthews – Washington Spirit
  2. Kayla McCoy – Houston Dash


  1. Rumi Utsugi – Reign FC

New Zealand

  1. Katie Bowen – Utah Royals FC
  2. Abby Erceg – North Carolina Courage


  1. Rachel Corsie – Utah Royals FC
  2. Claire Emslie – Orlando Pride


  1. Celia Jimenez Delgado – Reign FC


Land of the Free

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Happy Independence Day to all those in America who are free. And I don’t mean those who are metaphorically free, entering us all into a debate about privilege and rights, those who are more free than others (although we certainly could have that discussion), I mean those who are not in cages. Who sleep in beds and not on top of their neighbors. Who live in conditions other than of 62% increase not well maintained by current facilities. I mean children who have eaten a hot meal, who have not showered or had diapers changed.

And let me stop you before you get too far into your comment thread rant (which, you should know, I appreciate), you’re right to raise the issue of the homeless veterans. Are these women, men, and soldiers free? Stuck sleeping on pavement after shooting bullets into the skulls of those claiming to hold our freedom on foreign shores? Caught in government funded red tape deciding what healthcare should and should not be afforded?

And sure, we can talk about the Black men who are shot for holding what might be a gun and the White men who are carried out of mass shootings in handcuffs by cops who can keep their cool.

We could discuss how America’s youth are being taught by wait staff who can’t afford to pay their bills and buy pencils.

The point is, as I’ve said, not to discuss the degrees of freedom we do or do not have. The point is we have children caged in the land of the free and we’d rather talk about who’s fault it is or who started it. Didn’t Obama do the same thing, or is Trump the one who made a good thing bad?

We’re imprisoned by our ideologies that for 243 years have taught us what to love and who to hate. What to hate and who we love. How to speak loudest in a room of quiet trauma. I wonder if the land of the free can learn to listen to the ones we have in chains. If we can loose the ones we’ve attached to our own wrists over the unwillingness to be wrong. If there is such a thing as freedom.

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NWSL Debrief: April

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The NWSL is offically back in action! And what an explosive two week start the season has had. Fans missing the action in the off season have had plenty to welcome them back into the thick of it. In this post, we’ll do a brief assessment of each team as we begin to head into international duty, make some predictions for May games, and look at what’s on the horizon for the league.

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